Had a reflection session with myself yesterday night...
I realised I haven't really push myself...
In studies... Sports...
I'll try my best to do so from now on...
I also realise...
How long has it been since I had told my parents...
Thank you or I love you...
It just feels awkward...
Much more awkward than saying I love you to the gal you like...
I really appreciate them... My family as well...
My cousins... And friends and enemies around me...
Love you guys...
Sometimes I hurt ppl's feelings...
Without me knowing...
Especially Fel, Faris, Afizah, Ridhwan, Zorro, Neb...
And many other pp like Wandi...
Well I hope you guys read this...
I'm sorry guys...
I guess I am also very sensitive...
In other words... Senang-terasa...
Guess I have to change that... And sometimes...
I just act too fast based on emotions...
It does no good unless it's love... I guess...
I dunno la...
I feel that all my life has been wasted...
What have I achieved??? Have my parents been proud of me???
Have I been a follower of God???
I guess the no of ppl I hurt is more than my achievements...
And O levels are coming...
And I am still slacking... What the hell man...
Haix... I'm planning to go NJC or AJC or ACJC or SAJC...
Meridian JC wld not be too bad too...
But I have to work hard from now on...
Must beat Fath, Khidir, Nabil, Faris, Zaki...
I know I can do it...
I must do it...
I have not reached full potential and I am no where near there...
So watch out... Coz I'll be coming in sooner or later before the O levels...
In the meantime... Got to go training...
